Crossroads: Setting the Stage
I find myself currently at a crossroads, however there are no roads. There are not any paths or distinct choices of directions. No go left or go right. Not go to that path or this path. I feel as if I am in the middle of hundreds of acres of prairie. The options are limitless! What an amazing opportunity I have. To truly create my own path going forward from where I am presently.
I should back up and tell you a little bit about from where I have come.
When I look back at my life, I realize that I have come to do more than I had ever realized in any one moment. These experiences I have of course include the typical but also include some a-typical. A lot of my typical experiences relate to following the american dream. Finding a career, buying a car, buying a house, dating trying to find “the one”, hitting certain social status marks and having certain career and title statuses.
But here are some of the a-typical life experiences. I went out and got my first job before I was even a teenager on my own volition. I worked a job through high school. I drove a couple hundred vehicles and kept a list at the time before I even turned 16 and got my drivers license. I spent my 21st birthday learning to ride motorcycles instead of going out and drinking legally and celebrating. I became certified to teach the motorcycle safety courses, road raced motorcycles at the club level, been a board member on a couple different non profit organizations and owned more vehicles in 16 years than most will in their entire life. Heck even combined with spouses I tend to have had more. Being addicted to motorized vehicles has been my drug of choice.
I don’t feel or believe I am elite or special by any means. I point most of this out because it is often most of my life the reaction I hear from others… “Wow, and how old are you?” or “Holy cow, I wish I…”. I also point this out because it starts to draw a picture in a very quick manner. This should help suffice until more of my backstory is written in future blogs.
Coming back to the present moment now, I have started down a path further from the american dream and letting go of the guilt and baggage associated with leaving the norm. I am headed towards a more minimalist lifestyle. Please don’t misunderstand me though, I am not calling myself a minimalist because there are certain aspects I do not anticipate giving up. Say my addition to motorized vehicles and adrenaline. But I am definitely looking to cut many ties with the american dream. Owning a house and property, owning certain possessions, owning and decorating my next home per the social standard etc.
I have a couple different variations of a dream and while I am not sure which variation I actually want, I am preparing and moving in the direction that can satisfy both without committing to one or the other. That right there is really the whole point of this all for me. Living in the present moment of infinite possibilities! Instead of spending a short amount of time there and then not visiting again for a very long time.
I am not saying it is easy to stay camped out there nor that I am really quite good at it. I am simply not but I am always trying to be better.
What I have found is that once you let go of the guilt that we are all raised with associated to many aspects of living in the moment or changing your lifestyle is that it no longer becomes dreadful and stressful to live in infinite possibilities but quite exhilarating. It is that exhilaration that becomes intoxicating and thus additive! So I say again, What an amazing opportunity I have and I genuinely you too can have a taste of this.
I could go on but I think I would rather prefer to share with you each of the variations of my current dreams in dedicated and detailed posts.
Until next time, love your life and don’t wait for tomorrow for anything.
— Finnegan
